i fell in love in october

kezia
2 min readOct 16, 2023

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you said billiard is your favorite game

“Every night, I pray to God, that I may be able to dream of you again and again. With only one purpose. That I may find a possibility. That he may give me the courage to reveal my heart to you, even if only a piece of it.”

I CAN stare at you from a distance. Trying to find you, even in the liveliest of crowds. I never fail to notice you. And you must not know.

I can find out everything you like and don’t like. Including your favorite songs, your favorite books, the places you like to visit alone or with your friends, as well as the type of girl that might attract your attention and have a great chance of having your heart.

I did everything I could to connect and be close to you. But I didn't have one thing. I never had the courage. To approach you, to show myself to you, let alone confess all these feelings to you. My fear was so great. That when you find out and you don't like me, you'll leave and I'll be far away from you. Not being able to see your smile anymore is one of my biggest fears.

So I just left things like this. Every single day, I will do again all the things that make me feel close to you. Even though you can’t see my figure. Even though for you, I might just be a shadow that is always behind you.

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kezia
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